Does this ever happen to anyone else? When you find yourself just listening to all these old songs that remind you of years and years ago, and suddenly everything just comes back and you feel sad?.. Not that we’re dwelling in the past or anything, just that.. it’s how the songs make you feel.. They remind you of a younger, happier, stupid, naive you.

I mean of course, we were young so naturally we were happier in a sense that everything we did didn’t really have that much consequence to deal with afterwards. Or maybe they did but we were just too young to care about “consequences”, or to even be scared by something that hasn’t yet happened (lol), so we just went and did what felt right to us at the whim of moment (which is no longer really the case once we grow up).
We become mature.. We weigh things out like responsible adults (at least I do).. I don’t jump into things that cause me to hesitate in the first place, anymore. In simple terms… I’m almost no fun anymore.
And it is seriously scary. Who would’ve thought?

I always did what made me happy back then. My parents could always say no, but I always did what I wanted. No one, nothing, could stop me from being happy. And I really, honest to goodness, was.
So I’m listening to these old songs by Shania Twain that I used to listen to ages ago.. and just so many memories flood in.
I remember a time when I was completely idiotic, yet over-the-top ecstatic, eloping with this one guy I was so madly, crazy in love with, and I gave up school (highschool), everything, and ran away with him..
I know what you’re thinking.. What the f/ck, right? LOL

But somehow, those days that I made the most mistakes, were the happiest days of my life. I know, and I’ll always believe, that whoever breaks the most rules, gets to have the most fun.
Unfortunately, I no longer have the right to break any more rules in this lifetime (we lose those rights once we grow up, we can’t afford to not care anymore), so I guess I’ll have to find other ways to be happy. I have broken enough rules, and my family’s hearts too many times, I cannot be selfish anymore..

But if you’re feeling cheesy too & would like to be reminded of your past, here’s one for you: